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Niji: L'arc en ciel

1. "Never give 100% only 20% until he/she proves to be worth it"

2. "Love as though you've never been hurt before"

I rather chose number 1. Kadang-kadang you just want to be a pessimist.hoho :P

Pengajaran nombor satu: Tidak semua persahabatan itu indah.


Aisyah's mumble: xmas..urm..baron?

Day03: Alter baju kakak

Siang tadi aisyah tolong alterkan baju pengatin kak asmah. Cuma kak asmah dan aisyah je dalam bilik. Kak asmah pakai atasan baju pengatin, berdiri depan full mirror. Aisyah dengan tekunnya sok macam reti menjahit, jahit bahagian yang kak asmah suruh.

Masa godek-godek alter, aisyah glance at the full mirror. Seeing our own refelection, my kakak and I, I couldn't believe my kakak is actually getting married!

Smaller and shorter by a few inches than me (yes, yours truly is actually TINGGI yaa :P ), she is 6 years older. But she doesn't look 26. Macam budak sekolah menengah pun ada.

Teringat kata Hema the night before I went back,

"Aisyah, you rasa you menangis tak masa your kakak kahwin?"

Err..camna yerk nak jawab soalan tu? Tapi yang pasti, masa aisyah tolong kak asmah alter baju aisyah tahu this will be the last time I will get her all for myself. Sedih kejap. Sob sob.

But alaaa..life is about making changes kan, and this one good changes in her life. Eventually I will get married also, beranak pinak 5 6 7 , bergossip dengan my kakak about our husband or so dan ada rumah dengan fridge 2 pintu. hehe.

Okay gtg. On my right my adik busuk tengah baring(cis takdak privacy langsung!) and at left my dear kak vovi tengah solat. Blurgh, baru je ingat I get mama's room all for myself.

p/s: aisyah makan 3 servings of asam pedas ikan tenggiri ooo. ngehee

random

heningan malam

stacy told me
aisyah terdiam
they say its a good news
then why my heartache?
cis aisyah

Aisyah's mumble: "don't look back in anger, i heard u say"

jack of what??

yael naim: lonely

Me: Stacey should I buy?

Stacey: Don't know la aisyah. Do you really need ke?

Me: Urm. Ntah la. Minat memang ada. But..ish..I takut jadi macam my keyboard. Minat, but now malas. Dahla I've told myself nak practice my drawing this year. Tu pun tak lagi. I want to do sooo many things but semua hampeh!

Stacey: Jack of all trades, master of none

Me: Huh? Apa tu?

Stacey: Someone who's good in so many things but master in none


Huff! Terasa. Aisyah not sure about the 'good' part, tapi trying to do soo many things and master in none adalah sangat betul betul betul.


Aisyah's mumble: tutup mata, dance to the song :)

photo zulaikha

kipas: pusing2 siang

Aisyah open her facebook, and found out this in her cousin's page:

mak lang ina, zulaikha and mak lang asmah-sok imut dong!

zulaikha dengan abah-my abang poyot, dan kak asmahku

ntah apa la mak lang ina ajar kat zulaikha nie :P

Kak Ina-my cousin, saja jer nak post bikin aisyah jealous. Cis!

Takpa..Zulaikha tunggu mak teh k?

Aisyah's mumble:1 step finish, another 2 steps..woot woot!

sabtu si sabtu

kooks: naive

Today, I woke up at 630am. Early kan? But my day really starts at 1pm, itupun sebab nak keluar untuk makan. After that I spend much of my time reading Anne Frank- The Diary of a Young Girl and watch 2 movies non stop- Closer and The Secret Life of Bees. Sungguh unproductive hari ini.

For dinner I make myself tuna sandwich, munching it away while watching Take Him Out with Ain and Malina. When I went back to my room, Fazrul's sms bring me back to reality. Kerja. Urgh terasa beban di badan.

My job was easy, arrange meeting for MSK hicom tomorrow. Nampak mudah, tapi kesabaran fuhh memang kena tinggi (since kesabaran aisyah hanyalah limited) The thing is, you have to ask one by one what time they're free. When you decide this time, another person tak boleh. When you decide another time, ada orang taknak cause it's to early or too late. And when you sms (and hope they reply fast, sebab nak decide cepat2) they didn't reply. So you have to wait, or worse you have the 'honour' to call that person. Bak kata pepatah, banyak orang banyak ragam. At times you feel very geram, usap-usap dada and remind yourself it's part of the job.huhu

"work is just another to do list"

When we've finally decide the time and place (which aisyah rasa tersangat la lega!), Fazrul remind me of another kerja. Aduh!

Sorryla teman, miss procastinator got a hold of me AGAIN. I've already wrote my PKP work list, tapi hampeh non of it is cross yet. Aisyah oh aisyah. Sometimes I wish I'll be more proactive, so atleast Fazrul won't have to remind me of my job. Ish malu je.

Oh well, this is only last for another 1 month pastu hai hai bye bye lah!


Aisyah's mumble: bu sardi, kanit and vidi, surat audit etc etc oh! abdominal examination! er er P3K. Ugh asa!

Jacob and Edward secret affair!

howie day: she says

Jacob and Edward is having an affair!!!!!
And I have the picture to prove it!!

Hehe. Oke, caption yang agak lame. But you could not help to wonder kan? Maybe it'll be like those two guys in Brokeback Mountain. Cinta terhalang. And Bella is just an excuse, and and those fights to get Bella are just a coverup. Why? Helloooo..because the wolvespack and the vampires are not in good terms lah. Those two obviously cannot show their affections openly. Nak mati?! So like I said, cinta terhalang. And dear Bella here are just so happen to be there when their love starts to bloom. So tadaaa! A perfect coverup.

Who knows what really happen behind those treees~

Nah, gambar yang membuktikan segala-galanya.

bella kene tipu!

Aisyah's mumble: vidi, P3K, prasmanan, report..bla bla bla

another ramblings

oasis: wonderwall

Girls and gossiping seems inseparable. I know guys gossips as well, but it's no fun like how the girls does it. While guys (I think) deliver the gossip with not much of a drama in it, girls on the other hand, can be as kapochi as they want it to be!

If you've ever been in this kind of group-the loud semangat gossipers, you know what I mean, kan? A whole freaking boat can rock back and forth if they're in it!

Gossips are not good, especially the juicier ones. It only brings shame to the person and untruthfulness in another. But there's something about it. It strengthen friendship in a weirdly twisted way. What I mean is, you usually tell this gossips with your friends-the one you want to share the gossip with, the one you want to talk all day long about it, the one you trust with, the one you seems comfortable with. And sometimes, it can bring 2 person who doesn't talk to each other, to talk with each other.

Obviously not all of us maintain friendship by this way (macam kesian je kalau ada). But c'mon, you have to admit there's some truth with what I'm saying right?

Gossip spreads like wildfire
Tak takut tuhan ka?

:P

Aisyah's mumble: tik tok tik tok..masa berlalu

Pre exam ramblings

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

Collide-Howie Day

Pre exam ramblings:

Besok exam. Lecture notes dah habis baca, tapi sayang..banyak tak ingat. Alangkah indahnya kalau semangat nak hafal antiarrhytmia drug sama dengan semangat nak hafal lagu ni. :P

Besok exam. Biostat 6 pun belum hantar lagi. Nampak sangat akan ada unsur tiru orang lain ni. Masalah..masalah.

Besok exam. Otak dah tepu. Lecture notes tu rasa nak rebus bikin sup je. Minum, pastu konfirm boleh jawab semua. Kan best kalau betul. Hehe.

Besok exam. Yup besok exam. Stacey beli ice cream. Oke, Aisyah suka :)

C'moooon exam!


Aisyah's mumble: once is there is there. who said it was easy?

soalan apakah??

Salam,

A good friend of mine came up to me and ask,

"Aisyah, macam mana rasanya tak boleh tidur ye?"

Aisyah: @#$$%@!!! apakaaah?! *dush dush*


p/s: sorry for the lack of post. I'm detoxifying myself from blogging, facebook and ym, and it felt goood. eheks! im back bebeeeh!

aisyah's mumble: i'm happily counting of the days :)

post

Salam,

Aisyah akhirnya delete the last post. Kenapa? Sebab aisyah rasa akan ada orang pikir "Eeii tolong la aisyah tu. Dia ingat dia ni siapa nak di layan special treatment ke bila berkawan? Pastu nak timbul ayat ukhuwah.Ceit!" Hehe. Kidding! I should know better la kan?

Truthfully, reason mendeletekan sebab rasa post tu terlalu emo. I never wanted my blog to be 'Blog rakaman setiap kali si Aisyah beremo', no no I would definetly do not want that, do I? I do by the way blame it to my crazy unbalance hormones, cik estrogen and cik progesteron (sory kaum adam, you could never use this excuse :P)

But seriously, I do think I hurt a few people along the way. And for that I apologize :( It was never meant to offend anyone. Cuma masa tu terlayan lebih sangat emosi, dan biasala bila layan sangat perasaan yang terbuku di hati..haaa kau! satu post emo yang panjang dah ditulis!

But all the things I said were true, and all the feelings I felt were real. Aisyah tahu tidak semua muslim baik dan tidak semua non muslim jahat. Dan aisyah sendiri tidak mahu meng generalize kan semua. I myself don't think it's fair. But as i said before, i had the confusion (and sometimes am now) and just don't have anyone to go to. Aisyah sendiri dah make peace with myself, cuma bila terkena, terkenang lah. The wound runs to deep that it's just too difficult to ignore.

Tapi aisyah tahu, Allah itu adil. And that I greatly belieave. And who knows maybe one day, Allah permudahkan jalan aisyah ke arahNya, and once again aisyah merasakan kemanisan ukhuwah itu :)

P/S: Bila didekat, terasa tersisih. Diam dan cuba lagi. Bila terkena lagi, sakit di hati. Akhirnya mensisihkan diri, melindungkan diri. Hakikatnya, tiada sesiapa pun mau mensisihkan diri tanpa bersebab. Bukan setiap hari kita bangun dengan perasaan mahu berjuang. Tapi atleast kita cuba.

Charity Concert Hands to Share

Salam,

Alhamdullilah, "Charity Concert Hands to Share" went out smoothly. The concert, organized by International Programme UGM is an event to collect money for the Sumatran Earthquake victims that strike last September.

Since it is an Inter's event, most of the committee and performers were International students.

That night, banyak yang main classical piece. Ada yang main piano, violin and also guitar.And oh oh oh how I love to watch Taufiq played the guitar! He did one of Andy Mckee's songs. He strum through the guitar and there's a part he ketuk-ketuk guitar. Ala..macam dalam cerita August Rush tu. Macam mana la aisyah (and other girls obviously) tak cair :P

Beside the guitar, Aisyah looked forward for these two talented pianist, Edo (budak Inter) and Ivan (bdak Regular). I had once saw these two, played during "Malam Classical dan Jazz UGM" last year. Hebat gile diorang masa tu! So I have no doubt I'll enjoy their performance again. Dan memang betul pun!

Aisyah enjoyed Edo's piece "Somewhere over the rainbow".Simple, yet he played it with full emotions sampai aisyah pun rasa aisyah over the rainbow :) Pastu Ivan plak played a Beethoven's piece. Ni memang kena tabik spring la! I don't know much about classical music, but I know he played a very complicated piece and was very good with it.

Other than that, a few of our batch mates also performed. Ni termasuk Iffa dan Hui Min, the violin duo! Sebelum ni, depa selalu datang rumah dan practice violin kat bilik aisyah. So when they were upstage, rasa bangga sangat! I noticed Hui Min made some mistakes (siap senyum-senyum kambing plak masa tu), but nevertheless it was good performance!

The violin duo: Iffa and Hui Min

Ray Robson (one of the top committee) also performed. Ni takyah cakap la, memang diketahui hebat. Another person I truly amazed was Suzie. The thing about Suzie is, she never had a piano lesson her whole life. Never! She only started to learn by herself after SPM. So on that night, when she played Croatian Rhapsody, aisyah terpegun sebentar.

"See, with hardwork and persistance you can be like her", Stacey said to me.

Ray Robson and Suzie

Selain daripada classical performance, ada jugak Korean drums and percussion diiringi dengan tarian. I've never seen a Korean performance, so I was looking forward for it. Miss Sen Hen Ha, the dancer was superb! She was dress like err hantu. Putih je muka dengan lengan baju elaborately long. Her dance was; emm how to say yek- amazingly and uniquely scary.

Hema siap ada goosebump masa tengok. The whole night after the event finished, Hema kept on saying she was scared. So which means Miss Sen Hen Ha was good la kan?

Miss Sen Hen Ha and Miss Kang

Korean drums and percussion performers

The concert finished with a fusion of Korean percussion and Javanese gamelan. It was super gooood! Aisyah siap kasi standing ovation!-which after that rasa malu plak sebab yang lain tak bangun/hehe

Fusion. Gamelan dan Korean percussion

Ohya, Aisyah dengan Fikri was in the decoration team. Sebelum ni kitaorang pernah team up untuk Malam Gala. So it was surprisingly nice to work with him again. The posters, bookmark, tag name dan kotak sumbangan yang over, adalah benda yang kitaorang dipertanggungjawab. Pastu on the night itself kitaorang jadi "penjaga pintu". Macam bozer kelab je rasa masa tu.

So to Fikri (aku tahu kau tengah baca ni :P)

Thank youuuu so much!

I had a great time working with you! Potong bookmark yang berlambak, letak riben kat bookmark selama 3 jam,bertanding buat kotak sumbangan yang paling cantik- aku enjoy every minute of it! (ok, maybe tak every minute la kot) If aku terkasar kata, sorila ek! Nanti bley tuntut Choclatos kat aq yaa :P

Fikri> Kami team deco~

Mauny and Gobi: Stage Crew

Malina, Stacey, Hui Min, Hema, Suzie and Clemency

The event overall was a success!

A lot of people came, and I've found out we collected large number of money for the relief. So kudos for all the committees (esp Stacey and Ray Robson) for their hard work!

D' Committee

Concert already finished. Few men started to cleanup the place. There were less than 6 people in auditorium.

Me: Ray, mainkan Marriage D' Amor boleh?
Ray Robson: Marriage D'Amor ya? Oke sure

He sat at the piano stool. Aisyah sat beside him. He started playing the song. Aisyah mula layan perasaan. Hmmm

aih

"Dia" dah datang balik..

Masuk malam ni dah 3 hari. Insomnia. It gets worse on the 3rd day. Aisyah dah start rasa miserable. aihh


Aisyah's mumble: bila hati mula mempersoalkan adakah itu penyebabnya?

lepak lepak la weekend

"Aisyah, join basket taw Selasa ni", Iz said to me after a brief basketball match with the 05.

"Hah? Iz, aisyah tak boleh main la", I said to her.

"Iz pun tak reti, Ain pun sama. Kita main je. Tak cukup orang ni", she insisted.

Great..A perfect ending for my 'perfect' weekend.

After coming back from raya, my workload seems to add up day by day. I'm either struggling to keep up with my studies and assignments( Block 3.2-Chest Complaint), confused to do my research proposal or busy involved in a non medical related activities -PKPMI (Malaysian student association here), GadjaMada Festival, Charity Concert, PUSKESMAS, Lessan (a NGO) and TBMM.

Needless to say, my weekdays (and weekends) was fully booked. If I am still in my 1st or 2nd year, maybe I will still bersemangat to do this but by 3rd year my priority was clear:

1. Spend more time on my studies
2. Do the things I loved :)

Period.

Third year proved to be a hectic year for us batch07. Everyone seems to be busy and from time to time you'll hear people sighed about this. Whether about our studies, our stack up assignments, pusing for an event or about the juniors-adakah mereka bisa diharap? So having a time to rest and rewind would be a great treat to us!

sometimes it can be overwhelmed kan?

Hence when one knows that he/she can have two days (Saturday and Sunday) all too one self, one should quickly grap it la kan?

I ignored TBMM Vertical Landing activity on Saturday and Water Rescue on Sunday without second thoughts (ni sungguh uncommon, since aisyah is always semangat for TBMM. hoho)

By Friday, I was all geared up for my weekends!

Saturday

I woke up late, which is not a good sign. Gone was my idea to go jog or cycle early in the morning. By the time I'm ready to 'enjoy' my day, I noticed the house was quiet. Ain when to PUSKESMAS, Stacey and Hema to TBMM, Malina in her room upstairs and Woan Shiang was busy preparing for her PA test. Bummer.

Eventually I spend most of the day in my room.

I tried to study-but my brain keep on saying "Oi! Ni weekend aa!". I tried playing the keyboard-tapi alahai takdak mood la plak. So I picked up a book which I've been trying to finish, golek-golek atas katil while listening to songs from Fiona Apple and Damien Rice.

By sore, junio09 came to practice their Diwali dance and Iffa also came to practice her violin. What a treat it was to see 2 perfomace in a day! I made cucur ikan bilis for them and when to 'membalas makanan' to Pqah and gave buah salak to Adi's house.

The day end quite early. After watching Take Him Out with Ain, around 9pm or so I went to bed. I, afterall need my 8 hours of beauty sleep okee.

Sunday

Aisyah bangun awal, tapi malas nak bangun. I thought of Taiwan for awhile, sighed a little and tried to sleep back.

When I finally woke up, I convinced myself to do something productive today. Prepared breakfast , mopped my room, read about Sufiah Yusuf, return something to Tkah and borrowed Twilight from Dibah.

When lunch came, we ordered Special Sambal. Oh tersangat sedap!

Wahai terung goreng kau memang la irresistable!
Buat ku bisa mengidam mu pada malam hari~

As the rest of the day I was on my bed-macam slowpoke, reading Twilight.

After finished reading the book (dan membebel seorang diri), it was 4.30pm. Remembering Ain's offer, I changed my clothes and cycled to campus. When I reached there, batch 05 were playing baling selipar. Kelakar tengok sebenarnya. I played for awhile-baling selipar and galah panjang. Rindu plak game2 macam ni. 50x better than playing PS2!

Then, before we went home we played basketball with the 05. Wee Pang and Nicholas were also there.

After the game lah, Iz asked me the question.

I hesitates. Sports and I don't really go along that well. We just don't have that chemistry between us, you know?

Oh well..maybe you might see this next Tuesday:

hehe. kidding!

A perfect weekend indeed. :)

unexpected hadiah

" Aisyah are you at home?", Hui Min asked me on the other line.

" Aah. Why aa?"', I asked back feeling curious.

" I datang kejap to you're house ya. Want to give you something"

" Huh? Sekarang ka? Emm ok. Miss call bila dah kat depan rumah ek", I replied back, feeling more curious.

I looked at the watch, it's 9pm already. "Ish..asal ek? Ada apa-apa ke ni", I asked to myself again. I shook of that thought and continued to read my Readers Digest.

After 10 minutes, Hui Min called me from outside. I quickly got out from my bed, took my keys and headed to the door.

" Hui min~ Kenapa ek?", I asked her as I was walking towards her.

She was on her bicycle, smiling to me and holding a brown thing on her right hand.

"Nah", she gave me the thing that she is holding.

I took it, rasa pelik she came all the way for this

And guess what? It is a brown pursee

A simple purse I must say, ada corak dan ukir-ukir sana sini. The one you could easily find at the streets of Malioboro. Tapi aisyah still sangat sangat suka every little inch of it! Stacey even said it is so me when I showed her (sebab dia corak-corak.hoho)

Well teman, if I told you 30 minutes ago (seriously 30 minutes ago!) I thought of changing my purse, will you believe me?

Hiks! Teman, you really make my day la! Thank youuuuu :)

Violinnn

Iffa dan Hui Min main violin kat bilik sekarang. Tengok bow diorang coordinate sama-sama- atas bawah atas bawah, aduuh asyik dong nontonnyaa!

Aisyah suka :)

Monolog dalaman: Cik aisyah, kapan hang nak pi keyboard class naa??

Pagi ke Puskesmas Anggulan

4.45am

My alarm rang-Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton. Dengan malasnya, I checked the time, it's 4.50am. I lied back.

Today is the day, I thought to myself. Volunteering work at Pusat Kesihatan Masyarakat (PUSKESMAS)

Suddenly I felt a cold chill. Nervous la ni kayaknya. I closed my eyes again, and let my mind wander.

5.20am

I woke up with a jolt. Kat luar dah bunyi bising.

"Mesti diorang tengah prepare nak pergi"

I got out from my bed lazily, and headed to the bathroom. Ish..solat subuh ujung-ujung lagi. Aisyah oh aisyah.

6.30am

Asa smsed me.

"Jam 7 ya aisyah..don't be late!!"

Ceit mamat ni, ingat orang akan lambat ka? Still, I look at the time. Erk!

I quickly get myself ready.

Jas- checked!
Stetoscope- checked!
Name tag- checked!
Watch- Emm tidak checked.
Breakfast- huhu. Tidak checked juga

I went to the kitchen. Everything stood still, terasa rumah sepi, kosong. Aneh sebenarnya. I shook my mind off, and quickly took my shoes near the garage.

6.54am

" Asaaa!! Aq baru bangun", I sent him the smsed. An evil smile crept on my face.

By the time I reached Taman Medika, I saw Eng Siang and Gandhi on their bike, just arrived at the faculty.

7.02am

"You nervous tak?", Eng Siang asked me.

"Agak laa. Rasa nervous the whole morning", I said to him.

"Sama dengan saya. Saya ada datang pukul 5.30am, hantar Adeline. Ramai dah ada di kampus, lagi rasa nervous"

"Betul-betul. Sebenarnya I ingatkan lambat tadi, rushing datang sini", I said to him eagerly.

" Oh? You punya jam pukul berapa sekarang? It's 6.52am now", Eng Siang showed his watch.

I checked my handphone.

"Eh? Mine is 7.02am. Maybe I cepatkan 10 minit. Laaaa..Eng siang!! Tengok..sekarang I dah tahu I cepatkan my watch!"

Ceit! Pass ni mesti datang kuliah lambat balik.

7.12am (mengikut jam handphone aisyah )

I'm walking back to TM. Lega selepas pergi toilet tadi, maybe due to my nervousness.

Asa and Yuni is already there.

"Kamu bilang baru bangun tadi", Asa said to me.

"Iyaa, memang baru bangun", I smile at him sheephisly.

He looked at me confused.

" Aku bercanda aja Asaa. Aku datang paling awal taw dibanding kamu!" I said to him proudly.

"Huh! Dasar kamu aisyah!"

I smiled, enjoying my success to kenakan Asa.

7.15am

We're inside Asa's car. There are a total of 5 of us.

Gandhi- Si ketua kelompok
Asa- Si Mirip Giant-Doraemon
Eng Siang- Si mamat yang pakai kemas
Yuni - Si Cewek Gendit

Everyone is excited. A 45 minutes drive. Greaat..

Hopefully I can do this, trying to motivate myself

The car moved. I looked outside, we've already left FK.


***

12.45am (masih mengikut jam aisyah ya)

Wah! Perut kenyang.

We're on our way back home. We stop for lunch to a chinese muslim restaurant. Boleh tahan laa

Everyone is in a good mood.

I looked out the window and smiled.

Thank you god..


:)

Sepetang dengan Farah

Me: You know, I don't think I'll be rich la. I'll be spending it on travelling.
Farah : Huh?

Farah Nasyitah looked at me weirdly. Why with the sudden change of topic?

It was petang near to maghrib already. We were walking home from campus.

After the Charity Concert's meeting, I stayed for awhile to watch the girl's basketball match. As usual, our batch supporters yang paling semangat. We cheered for the goal, cheered for the attempt goal and even cheered when our batchmate played!

Farah was among the supporters. When she knew I might walk home, she offered to walk with me. I thought it was sweet. She could have gone back with Sid and get back home in minutes, instead here she is walking with me, late in the evening masing-masing penat.

Farah: Aku pun tak rasa aku akan kaya.
Me : Asal ek?
Farah : Elo..you're looking at someone who spend Rp300k for her cat!
Me: Hehe..that makes sense

Farah : I think I'll be like my mum
Me : Maksudnya?
Farah : Kalau ada duit, spend. Kalau tak, tak la
Me : Haa! Macam kakak ipar dan abang aku jugak! Kalau ada duit spend, kalau tak diam. Sebab tu kalau diorg ada duit, nanti diorang bawak kitaorg pergi makan sushi la, movie la, makan tempat mahal la..kalau takda, takda la.
Farah : Betul! Lebih kurang macam mak aku jugak aa

We then discuss about rich people. Farah thinks rich people are rich because they are kedekut, I on the other hand thought its because they know how to take opportunity. So for the next 5 minutes, we argued about that, masing-masing bersemangat nak prove kan point yang disampaikan

Me : Sekarang aku banyak save duit spend on electronics stuff
Farah : Apa ko beli?
Me : Em, handphone aku..external aku..printer aku..
Farah : Sama macam aku gak. Aku spent banyak on gadgets gak..bla..bla..(nama-nama aneh computer gadgets semua keluar)..bla..bla..duit scholar nak tunggu.
Me : Oh..next scholar aku dah target nak beli apa! Aku nak beli lotion bodyshop..bestnyee
Farah : Bodyshop ek? That's a good brand.
Me : Tu la pasal!
Farah : Aku nak beli WARCOM (pen tablet) nanti. Tapi mahal sangat. RM1000 lebih. But it's nicer to use compare to the tablet I'm using right now. Smoother to draw

I don't really get it. So she explained to me how different tablet can affect how you draw. "Bila kau lukis, ko bukan pandang paper, tapi pandang screen. Sebab tu lain". The explanation goes on. Eventually, we came to a conclusion that whoever good in tablet drawing, can be a good microsurgeon. Maybe a brain neurosurgeon?

Me: I got a question Farah. Why are you buying all this? Kalau nanti ko jadi animator ke apa ke..logic jugak. But eventually you're going to be a doctor, bukan guna pun, takda masa plak tu.
Farah: Aku tahu..sebab tu aku nak draw sampai puas. Because later I know I'll drop everything, langsung tak sentuh!
Me : Haha. Macam reason aku masuk keyboard class nanti.

We go on talking excitedly about this. Then the topic shifted to drawing.

Tiba-tiba teringat masa di KTT berborak dengan Farah Nasyitah. Kitaorang bercakap dari jam 11 sampai 1 pagi non stop pasal Harry Potter. Yang peliknya, masa tu baru kenal Farah.

Me : I used to like drawing. Especially trees and buildings. Tapi sekarang tak. I really want too..but it takes time la, which I cannot afford.
Farah : Sama la. Aku faham, especially when you're taking medicine.

The sun already goes down. Few birds fly over us. Multiple azan can be heard as we walked. The warm evening breeze brushed through us.

Me : Have you ever feel you want to draw so much, but you can't because you don't have your own style? You end up tiru orang lain tapi you tak rasa puas.
Farah : Yes yes all the time
Me : Really? Tapi ko dah ada style sendiri
Farah : No no tak. I faced the same problem also. Aku amik masa 11 tahun untuk sampai ke tahap aku sekarang kan

Aisyah berfikir.

Trying to draw again has been on my mind this past weeks sebenarnya. But I could never bring myself to it. Ironically now, I am having this conversation.

Nothing is impossible, its just that the impossible takes a little longer.

>>Di kala hati

Dikala hati ini mau bersuara
tiada yang mau mendengar
kerna manusia itu sememangnya
punyai dua mulut satu telinga
tidakkah kau tahu?

Dikala hati ini mau bersuara
di carinya teman
namun di tempiskan tepi
sakitnya hati setajam pisau
tetap diam seribu diam
dimananya teman seribu janji?

Dikala hati ini diselubungi emosi
bagaikan wayar dibelit belit
puncanya hilang rupanya jelek
kerna bila hati ini diselubungi emosi
bagaikan jihad perjuangan untuk dirinya
mencari jawapan yang tiada titiknya

18 October 2009

>> falling slowly

12 0ct 09

i dont know you
but i want you
all the more for that

words fall through me
and always fool me
and i cant react

falling slowly
eyes that know me
and I can't go back

Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova

Me : Elo assalamualaikum
Cikin: Waalaikumusalam
Me: Cikin, panggil mama
Cikin : Huh? Kakak mana ni? Kak Aisyah ke Kak Asmah ke Kak Azreen?
Me : Ala awak ni, panggil je la mama.

She put down the phone and from far I can hear she called mama, "Mama..!! Kakak call!! Kak Aisyah atau Kak Asmah atau Kak Azreen kot!".

Aneh sungguh adikku sorang ni, kakak sendiri pun tak boleh nak bezakan. Takpala, us sisters are after all are known to have similar voice and way of talk especially on the phone. It used to cause some confusion between our friends and sometimes for fun, we just go along with it :P

Papa : Alo?
Me : Eh? Assalamualaikum pa. Appa buat apa?
Papa : Huh?
Me : Papa buat apaaa?
Papa : Baca paper..

*silence*

Talking with my appa on the phone has always been awkward. It seems that when not facing each other, my dad can be quite cold. The conversation eventually will be short and end up with me asking to talk to mama.

The opposite with my appa which I enjoy sitting side by side, watching together history documentary or some programme in Discovery or National Geographic. I'll be chatty asking questions about the programme, and he'll answer my question patiently never to raise his voice. Sometimes we watch in silence, a comfortable warmth surrounds us. They are things better said than words.

Me : Pa mama ada tak?
Papa : Em sekejap

Mama : Elooo
Me : Elo maa. Ma buat apa?
Mama : Oh mama kat belakang tadi ngan Mak Long
Me : Aik Mak Long?

She explained Mak Long is here for Kak Halwa's graduation. Abang Chak and Abang Ngah is also here. With Zulhai and Hanif around- my Abang Ngah's mischievous anak, sure mama risau keselamatan barang-barang kaca dia. Then she goes on talking about Abang Cik is preparing lunch for them, so they are waiting for him.

Mama : Aisyaaaah, semalam mama buat 5 kilo roti jala
Me : Heh? Untuk siapa?
Mama : Untuk surau. Mama charge RM18 sekilo, sepatutnya rM20 tapi sebab untuk surau mama tak kesah sangat. Sakit-sakit belakang mama buat dengan Cikin.
Mama : La mama ni, sekarang Cikin boleh la tolong. Nanti kalau takda Cikin camna. Letih la mama
Mama : Oh takla itu sebab mama buat berdiri. Aisyah tahu kerusi computer atas tu? Nanti mama bawak bawah..mama duduk sambil buat.
Me : Emm

She talks about it proudly, like a kid eager to share her victory. Except I don't feel that way.

At her age, I thought she won't do small business anymore. At a very tender age, my mum used to help her mum to make and sells kueh. You see..my arwah tokwan is a policeman and doesn't earn that much to support his 9 children. I remember my uncles told us stories they used to eat nasi with only minyak ikan and kicap. Or they have to sell karipap in school and got scolded by the teachers. They even told us the story about my ma got into an accident after a cooking class. She has the scar on the head to prove it.

Over the years, when she has us, she still does it. Become a Tupperware and Amway agent, selling Indian saries, Italian ornaments, Beijing's bed comforter, Vietnam's bag sulam to name the few. She even used to sell kueh makmur for raya. Oh how I hate to help her during that time.

Till now, it amazes me how she can manage to juggle her small business, the 5 of us and her work in the bank, mostly without my dad around.

Mama: Aisyah dah confirm dengan exhange program tu?
Me : Yup dah.
Mama : Nanti mama tambah.
Me : Em..takpa kot ma. Aisyah nye saving cukup ni
Mama : Takpe..mama ada duit, nanti kalau ada rezeki adalah. Ustaz penah bagitau takyah berkira sangat dengan anak. Allah tambah rezeki kita kalau kita pemurah, InsyaAllah.

Aisyah diam.

JYVG UCFGJ

15 Favourites Romance Movies (Part 1)

Salam,

Motivated by Ana's recent blog (heee..makasih ya ana!), I listed down 15 of my favorites romance movies. Sebenarnya macam banyak, tapi lantak ah. For my own referencess pun bile masa dah tua. hoho.

I've been planning to write it down for quite sometime now, but cik procrastinate and cik malas got a hold of me. So today dengan jayanya men type.

Some of the movies I chose are just classic boy meet girl then happy endingnye movie, while others are the sure-hero/heroin-ada-mati-one! kindda movie.

But overall it's those movies which touch your heart, left a tingling feeling inside and eventually leads you to berangan to have the same love story, same guy, same romantic moments etc etc *sigh, kalau la benar..*

So here goes,

Aisyah's 15 favourites romance movies:

jeng jeng jeng!!

1. Mozart And the Whale

I highly recommend you guys to watch this indie movie. The story mainly evolves about two autistic people who fall in love and their difficulties in maintaining their relationship. Josh Hartnett memang hebat ah in potraying as an autistic person, same goes to Radha mitchell.

2. A Moment to Remember - Korea

Oh..I love the character in here!

It is one of those movies, you wish to be as lemah lembut and ayu as the heroin, because you wish to get the tough-ARCHITECT-tahan nangis-good looking nye hero. heee *berangan*

Overall, the storyline and development of character are nicely showed here. Tu la pasal boleh menangis kaw-kaw. Feeling abih aa!

3. 50 First Dates

















I've watch this movie more than 5 times. That's how much I like this movie!

It's super sweet and the humour is just right. Not stupidly overboard. Plus, they have great songs in it. Forgetfull lucy~

Lucy : What happen to the cow?
Henry : Same like you, everday they have to remind her she's a cow.

4. Notebook
















Ni adalah classic. Simple and sweet.

Bookbased like A Walk to Remember, I think it is well adapted or maybe even better! They've chose great actors to play Allie and Noah.

Definitely a must watch!

Allie: Why now? I've been waited for 7 years??

5. Edward Scissorhand

















Waaaaah..sukaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Oh no no, not because our dear Johnny Depp is in it, but because simply..sukaaaaa!

So maybe it is not a typical romance movie, and maybe I love the idea of the character more than the whole romance thing, but tak kesah lah! A great movie by Tim Burton!

Aisyah kecik-kecik: Akak tengok..aisyah cam orang dalam cite tu! (pegang gunting dua belah tangan ngan gaya mengunting rambut)

6. Secrets - Taiwan

















I used to have an obsession over this movie!

Tengok banyak kali, download semua soundtrack, tiru certain words, ngan siap ada tiru certain action dalam cite nie ngan Hui Min! Memang menambahkan obsesi sama Jay Chou

But seriously, this story is great. Most of the scenes are in schools, so you can have that correlation and the love between Xianglu and Xianyu are just so adorable! The movie even emphasice on love between parents and child

My suggestion: Tengok movie ni dengan headset. Amazing amazing music is in it :)

7. 10 Things I Hate about You
















This is one cool romantic chick flick.

Sebenarnya 'She's All Tha't pun best gak. But I love the character of the girl here, played by Julia Stiles. Tough, independant and knows what she wants kindda woman. That's how I like it.

And the guy, acted by the late Heath Ledger is not your typical guy next door. When he sang "Can't take my eyes off of you", aduh sweet plak rasa.

Great to watch with your bestbuddies!





bersambung..

billionaires and buying countries

Salam,

Interesting article from yahoo.com

You know who's the richest man in the world right now?

Yes..Bill Gates, the notorious computer geek turn billionaire. Guess what! According to the yahoo article, Gates fortune is exceedingly more than the gross domestic product (GSD) of 140countries!

ye kami tahu kenapa anda senyum..

In other words, Mr Bill Gates here can buy Costa Rica if he wishes to..

umm..well i think this is a perfect spot to build my kitchen

..or if he doesn't like Costa Rico, how bout El Savador..


..or even Uruguay!

cuci mata cuci mata setiap ari

And his long time friend, the richest man in 2008; Warren Buffet (who according to the article, lost a huge amount of money in 12 months) can also join the our-money-worth-more-than-your-GSD-per-year club.

His fortune itself can buy North Korea.

super junior and wonder girls in the making.hihi

If you thought that making movies can't earn that much to buy a country..well, George Lucas proves you wrong!

The renown filmmaker for Star Wars and Indiana Jones (yes yes yes!) have fortune worth more than GSD Guyana. perghhhhh

indiana jones next mission,hee

Emm menarik.. :P

The Lost Symbol

"..is The Lost Symbol is as good as The Da Vinci Code? Simply put, yes..."

Aisyah wish the paperbag book will come out soon. Copaaat laa!

Good news!

Salam,

Alhamdulilah, Mr Oktober does bring me good news!

Aisyah found out she got this one..

..and next July maybe she will see this...


And who knows, she might meet this person..

..and shout with all her might, "Jay Chou!!! Wo hen ai niiiii!!!!"

hoho :P


Aisyah's mumble: tbwf evju sekarang!

Yea Yea Raya

Salam,

To all my teman-teman,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!

May You Guys Have A Bless One with Your Tersayang!

:)

Aisyah's mumble: I see a small crack already

Raya dan Gaza

i want to make she smiles
i want to make he smiles
i want to make both of them smiles
because they are my sayangs
:)

***

Salam,

Life has been good. I'm back in Malasyia for 2 weeks cuti raya. Dapatla spend time dengan family :) And to add up,this year we're gona celebrate raya in Taiping, a double yay yay for me! Too bad Hui Min canceled our plan the last minute. If not, I would love to show her how the Malays celebrate raya. The kampung feeling, the gotong royong, rendang and ketupat, bunga api and of course duit raya!

But ish..Ramadhan haven't finish, sibuk-sibuk pikir pasal raya. But as the say goes; makin tua makin tak semangat nak sambut raya. I'll say, ya betuuuuuul! The feeling is just not as it used to.Plus, Tok Wan is not here anymore. Definitely a different raya :(

Today, one important Palestinian figure came to our surau we always solat tarawikh. He leads the first 4 rakaat solat tarwikh and give preach afterwards. Siap ada orang tolong translate kan, sebab dia cakap dalam Arab (first time aisyah tak ngantuk dengar tazkirah! :P) He came by an NGO named HALUAN.

He mainly talks about Lailatul Qadar and touch slightly regarding issue in Gaza. Masa ni aisyah sedar dah lama aisyah tak ikut perkembangan Gaza. Nak cakap sibuk, macam mencari alasan. By the time they showed a video, i felt sad. Senang sungguh aisyah lupa benda-benda penting seperti ini. Dulu bukan main hebat! Sekarang, semangat boikot dah pudar, isu Palestines di letakkan tepi, sedekah di tangguh-tangguhkan, tanggungjawab di abaikan. Astaghfirullah. Nak cakap aisyah ni kuat susah mati sokong Palestine tak jugak, but i do try play my part. After all, they are my brothers and sisters.

I'll try harder next time. And insyaAllah, this time it stays longer.

Mari!

benci

tahu tak apa aisyah benci? aisyah benci bila aisyah compare diri sendiri dengan orang lain. aisyah benci bile aisyah meng degrade kan diri sendiri. dan paling membencikan ialah apabila aisyah pikir semua ini kerana seseorang.

aisyah adalah aisyah. seorang hamba Allah. tidakkah itu sepatutnya mencukupi?

Tisu dan air putih!

Salam,

I've realized something today. Two things you should always (kalau boleh la) carry around:

One. A pack of tissue
Two. A water bottle (obviously berisi air.hee)

You will never know when accidents might happen kan? And if it happens, this can be the easiest and simplest (and not to count handy) first aid kit!

what say you? :P


Aisyah's mumble: I dreamt my mum died. I woke up in shock. The dream was so real that it took me awhile to realize it's only a dream. I dreamt my pa died too on the first week when we came back from Malaysia. Two dream deaths in a month. How scary is that? Inilah akibatnya tidur siang-siang bulan puasa. Maybe sebab tak telefon umah dah 2 minggu. Padan muka aisyah!

Mau bersunat??

Adik: Loro!!! Loro pak!! *sakit!! sakit pak!!*
Angga (observer): Ora, kerih kerih aja, kerih kerih aja. *tidak, geli geli sahaja, geli geli sahaja*
Adik: Loro paaak! *menjerit dengan jayanya*

Arjanto (1st assisten) and Tony tan (2nd assisten) quickly prepared the 2nd dose of lidocain. Everyone were very serious with their work. The other observers tried to comfort the adik; one softly stroke his head, other jokingly ask him to be strong for his pacar. Dr. Ahmad injected the 2nd anesthetic while happily singing "Loro~ Loro~"

Yes, these was basically what happened during the khitanan massal. A lot of crying, shouting and obviously bloood spill! But nevertheless there were some adik who bravely go through the khitanan without a single drop of tear! Hebat sungguh.

Khitanan massal had always been an annual activity organized by TBMM (Team Bantuan Medis Mahasiswa). So when they announced they need people for panitia, I quickly sign my name up!

yan mardiyan as the ketua

sterilise the kidney bowl. kusyuk sungguh depa

puskemas. tempat acara diadakan

The khitanan massal was held 2 months ago, 4 days before our OSCE. Cuak gak masa tu nak join, pikirkan exam OSCE yang tak prepare. But when you ask the question "kapankah?", all those other reasons just seems like an excuse. So I brave myself up and pikir gasaaaak je!

the other malaysian who joined. tony tan dan cindy

sterilise circumcision set. actually cam suturing set kite jea

kami ketika baru sampai

And of course, no regards! Nil! Nada! Tidak langsung! How could i? I've learn a lot of things (which help in my OSCE obviously) and gain priceless experience! (by this, i also meant countless penis seen in a day! fuh)

parents

adik adik nak sunat

abangnye grogi, adiknya gumbira~

anamnesis station, hypospadia? micrpenis? etc etc

yuni dan nisa. kami panitia acara!

yok foto foto dulu donnng!

There were a total of 15 adik tu be sunat, and 3 doctors involve in the circumcission. The cool part was, we were given the oppurtunity to assist the doctors. Makanya..kami bisa menjadi first assistant or second assistant.

First assistant is the septic/sterilize assistant. They'll wear aseptic gloves and assist the doctor in giving the instruments, prepare for suturing and even touch the penis! (erk cam pelik je bunyi nie.:P)

The second assistant on the other hand is the unaseptic assistant. Their work are limited in opening the circumcision sets, assists doctor and first assistant wear gloves and even ade yang lap peluh doctor!

senior angkatan 2006

menunggu giliran meng assist

As much as I want to be the first assistant, we've got to beralah to the 06. Senior la katakan. But it was cool. I've got to see the whole circumcission first hand and learn a trick or two along the way :)

oops, sunat!!

selesai. makan lunch

TBMM members

The event was overall a success! Only one adik refuse to di sunatkan (takut kot) and 2 adik have to pujuk kaw kaw baru nak sunat. Other than that, the event went out smoothly Alhamdullilah.




aisyah: andre, apa itu sih dalam kantung hitam?
andre: preputium
aisyah: huh? ngapain ga buang aja?
andre: mau dibakar bikin satay! (dengan senyum kambing)


apakaaaah..