I was reading 2 articles about what party to chose in this coming election.
One is pro-government
Another is pro-opposition.
The pro-opposition, like in their slogan, basically wants "UBAH". A better government, govern by a corruption free party. They're sick of it, one may say.
Whereas pro-government, talks mainly about contribution of Dr M and jeopardizing our hak istimewa orang Bumiputera. And even being a Muslim in Malaysia. A sense of loyalty and grateful can be seen to the current government.
But what dwells me most, is the pro-government articles where I sense the fear of Malay to the DAP. The not so secret of the hak istimewa orang Bumiputera issue.
Now, I want to add to others articles circulating in the net regarding unfairness in scholarship distribution.
I've studied in a daily school. And Alhamdulliah, in my SPM exams, I got straight As (to be exact 7A13A2). In my school (if I'm not mistaken) only 17 people got straight A's with only 3 with straight A1. They are the non bumi.
Now, in my high school years, I'm close with an Indian boy. I consider him as my best bud. We were closed partly because he mixed around with the Malays. Truthfully, during those days, I didn't mixed enough with the non-Malays. A transparent barrier called language may be the reason.
He's a smart and hardworking person, who you'll definitely enjoy an intellectual conversation with. Smarter than me truthfully. Those days, if I want to call him at his home, he won't let me.
"Mak saya tak suka orang Melayu call", he'll said
Why?
"Ala, orang dulu, you know, Melayu India punya hal"
I just kept quite. That conversation as it turns out, stuck in my head for years.
In SPM he scored just like me. Straight As (I'm not sure the breakdown), but unlike me he didn't get a scholarship. So does the other 2 straight A1 student. Whereas the rest of us, Malays, got into our chosen universities.
I took medicine, half heartedly. He, wants it badly. I got in, he doesn't. At the end, he took STPM, then into a private college to study nursing.
My relationship with him, just went downfall. I tried to keep in touch with me, but it feels different. He changed. Cold.
So through out my meds life, I've constantly thought of him. I may not be in touch with him, but I'll make sure I'm updated with his life (thank you FB!)
Talk about fairness.
But still, sometimes I wonder whether my scholarship was given because I perform in school, or because I'm a Malay.
Truthfully, I'm confused on what to believe.
Part of me, the Malay part, feels that I need to uphold the keistimewaan because that is what our Malay forefathers fight for. If it weren't for it, most Malays may not succeed now. Are we ungrateful for what they have fight for us? I need to jaga my bangsa, bangsa Melayu.
But a part of feels, are we that shallow? Are we that weak that we need to rely heavily on this? Are we that afraid to compete with other races? A part of being a Malay we are, first and fore most a Muslim. One of the greatest civilization is born from here. Are we really really that weakkk?!
When I went to Singapore and Australia, I am amazed by they're public transportation system. And not just that. Their professionalism too ( Orang kerja buruh kat Australia sana semua mat salleh. Kat building site ka, kat transportation sector ka. All made in Australia gituh). And if you asked my friends, one of my most kept sentence said to her in Australia and Singapore was "Malaysia pun boleh buat macam nih, Malaysia pun boleh buat macam ni. Sapa kata kita tak boleh?".
When I got myself a data of initial GDP of 3 countries: Malaysia, Singapore and South Korea (all of this country had their independence near to each other) to the current GDP (year 2012), I am shocked. For a country who had the highest inital GDP out of the 3 countries, we were left far behind from the otherr 2 countries. Dimana silap? Kita ada sources. Siapa kata kita tak ada. Mana silap?
And that's why, I feel why some chose PKR. They want the change. Ubah.
But yet, are we Malays will be jeopardize if the opposition wins? Can we survive if our comfort sit be remove? Are we Malays afraid of DAP? Of the Chinese? Will muslims in Malaysia be jeopardize too?
My question to you and to myself: Are we Malay that weak?
