jumaat ramblings

remioromen: kona yuki

I hate cold. I love cold.

I do not like to be cold.

But I do wish to see this once in my life time,

Aurora Borealis

*love*
:)

P/S:

Weekend bebeh!!

Goyang kaki, goyang badan, jangan lupa goyang buntut juga!

Gyaboooo!!

Mr Moo Moo chan

pjay chou: ju hua tai

This is Mr Moo Moo chan.

He is a house slipper.

He was given to me by Miss Ecah Sanef on my 20th birthday.

Now Mr Moo Moo chan and I are roommates.

We live happily together with Mr Yamaha, Miss Tazmania Devil, Miss Gi Gi, Su Su and the rest of the animal geng.

Mr Moo Moo chan as you can see, is white in colour.

Eventhough he only plays around my room and never venture out, he gets dirty very easily.

So I washed him last Saturday.

This is Mr Moo Moo chan now,



Outside and cold.

He is still there today. Thursday.



Nah engkau! A dose of reality!

Wahahaha! Wahaha! Wahaha! Wahahaha! Wahaa..*cough*..hahaha..*cough cough*!


Aisyah's mumble: Readers Digest now is Rp30,000.00! Gulp.

mimpi basah

remioromen: sangatsu kokonoke

When I was small, I had this very peculiar dream.

In my dream, the earth at that time, was completely immersed with water. Human lives by building houses on water, or under the water. The earth was just another vast ocean. No dry lands, no continents.

I remembered seeing roads and buildings once busily occupied, became old looking, uninhabited and covered with corals - proofs that it has become a part of the sea, the underwater world.

It was dark. Gloomy. Quiet.

So in my dream, I followed a tour ship (more like an old pirate ship really) to see the submerged city.

When we reached there, you could only see the top of the buildings and towers. The rest are just water. The buildings were skyscraper like buildings.

Now, can you imagine how deep is the water?!

The thought of taking a little dip there was obviously out of the question. Gila ka!

So anyway, the city itself was very eerie. It was uninhabited, quiet and very still. The ship sailed very very VERY slow-as though do not want to disturb the silenceness of the unknown.

Then suddenly, the ship started to dismantled!

Ohhh! Pieces by pieces of the ship started to fall off!

I quickly climbed to the highest poll of the ship! And slowly just like the Titanic, the ship starts to sink into the deep ocean.

ha tenggelam kamu kapal

Now, the scary part was, as I am holding tight to the poll, from an eagle eye view, I could see an enormous-bigger than the ship-creature swam under our ship!

It was gigantic! It was humongous! It was super scary! I thought I'll die for sure!

Then,

I woke up. Chataw :/

The dream leave such an effect on me that every time I go into the sea, I always thought there's some sea creature going to pull me down!

Urgh scary.

Anyway after the dream, I do sometimes wonder what may the creature be. So I've come up a few hypothesis. The creature might be:

a. a prehistoric dinosaur sea creature which was awakened by the melting of glacier (global warming. ish)
b. a big big big Great White Shark
c. a big big big viracious whale


But today, I've come up another hypothesis.

It's a Blue Whale!

This thought came after I watched a documentary about Blue Whale. Fuh terasa di-educational kan.

besaq nyaaa

So, 9 cool facts about this magnificent sea creature:

1. Its scientific name is Balaenoptera musculus.

2. Is the BIGGEST known animal to ever lived on Earth! Dinosaour pun kalah!

3. It weight twice the biggest dinosaur!

4. The heart of a blue whale is as big as a small car and it's tongue is as long as an elephant! The size of the main arteries can permit a small person to crawl through it and logically enough, the blue whale also possessed the largest penis in the world! Ada nak lawan? haha

5. It feed almost exclusively on krill (a shrimp like marine inverterbrae) and are harmless to human (well, the chance for human-whale encounter during diving is also slim)

6. It can live for almost 80 years.

7. It is the loudest animal animal on earth! They can reach up to 188 decibels which is louder than a jet sound (Jet sound reaches 140 decibels. Sounds over 120 decibels are painful to human ears) But due to low frequency, between 10 to 40 Hz, the whale's song are inaudible to human ear (infra sound under 20 Hz cannot be heard by human)

8. The Blue whale is not a fish. It is considered as an ocean mammal. The largest fish in the world is the whale shark.

9. The blue whale was classified endangered species in the 1950s. It is estimated that there are about 10,000-14,000 blue whales world-wide and the number is still consider small. This is mostly due to human threats- whale hunting, ocean sound pollution (a deaf whale is a dead whale!), global warming and etc.

Cooh eh?

Ohyea, ada yang tertipu dengan tajuk post kali ini? Haaa, hang pikiaq apa ni?


P/S: I edited this post to add some more information about Blue Whale. So for those who read the unedited one, monggo monggo to read again :)

multitasking

joe hisashi:the legend of ashitaka theme

11.11pm

Multitasking to stay awake:

1. Doing Alpha Quest
2. Flipping through gout and pseudogout lecture notes
3. Reading Nodame Cantabile
4. Listening to instrumental soundtracks songs

The brain is amazingly kakkoi!!

Emotionally connected

outlandish:calling you

Darn! The downside of being sensitive-emotional-temperamental girl is you will always want to be "emotionally connected" with people.

But that's seriously not how it works. Daa..no no no!

Because generally people do not want to be "emotionally connected". Lagi lagi to someone they just know. Or even they know for quite some time.

So maybe you'll laugh together, hangout together, have fun together, create great memories together, but then in the end it will only be another meaningless memory, just like the rest billions of memories stored in the tiny brain of ours.

People come and people go and people gonna come again right?

Okay, I know I sound pessimistic again. But optimism rarely comes into my life nowadays. Talk about ungratefulness huh? Dah la nak dekat exam ni, nanti Allah tak permudahkan jalan kang aisyah! Oh tidak tidak tidak!

So cik aisyah, bak kata encik sudien kata (more to "bak kat encik sudien berblog" aha!),

Don't have expectations on others!

Lagi-lagi kepada kawan baik anda!

Yes, another life lesson experience learned in the boring life of aisyah. Sekian terima kasih.

This is life.
It ain't forever sweet
It ain't forever easy
So shut up,
and live with it.

15 march 2010

Aisyah's mumble: Now, don't you think ayat "friends forever" seems far-fetched?

libur!

dbsk: beautiful thing

4 days libur bebeh!!

flashback

**Attention! This is a loooong entry!**

flashback..

It is the year 2006

I open my eyes. My room is dark except for a tiny light coming from the kitchen.Ecah, my roomate is fast asleep. Her back is facing me. I can see her white earphones hanging from her ears.

She's always does that, listen to her walk-man before going to sleep. Sometimes, if I'm lucky we'll talk until both of us fall asleep. I stared at her for awhile. I wish she's awake.

The room is fairly quiet apart from the sound of our standing fan turning.

I closed my eyes again.

"Kalau Aisyah tak boleh tidur, baca surah Al Ikhlas 3 kali. Nanti insyaAllah boleh tidur", I remembered my mum's advice.

I start to recite the surah, and pray that Allah will make it easy for me to sleep.


flashback..

It is the year 1999

I open my eyes. Shoot! Not again. I look at the watch, it is 2am.

I started to feel scared. It has been like this for awhile; me, waking up in the middle of the night for no reason.

I closed my eyes again, and force myself to sleep. I kept telling myself that it is morning in another country, so I'm not the only one awake -I'm not alone. But all I could think of is somebody something is watching me.

I pulled my blanket high, covering my legs, afraid that maybe syaitan will pull me if he sees my bare feet.

"Cikin, bangun la. Akak tak boleh tidur. Teman la akak"

I shaked her body, desperate for her to wake up. She shove me off, utter some words of "Tidur je la akak" or "Alaa akak nieee!". Then she fell asleep again. Easy.

I wish papa is here. He'll make me warm milk and wait beside me until I fell asleep.

I make no attempt to wake her up again. I got myself closer to her, so that my body is touching her body, so when she breathe I can hear her breathe and when she's making a slight movement, I can feel her body moving.

I let my mind wander, finding comfort of my own imagination.

And I wait, for the azan subuh to be called.


flashback..

It is the year 1994

Aisyah terbangun lagi. Sebelah kanan aisyah katil mama dan papa, dan sebelah kiri aisyah, Cikin tengah peluk bantal peluk dia.

Mama dan papa dah tidur. Syikin pun dah tidur. Kenapa papa tak mendengkur? Sunyi sangat bilik, aisyah tak suka. Aisyah tak suka. Aisyah tak suka.

Haa, bunyi kereta lalu! Aisyah suka.Tapi, nanti sunyi balik. Bunyi jam bilik je dengar.

Tik..tik..tik..tik

Tiba-tiba aisyah terdengar bunyi tu. Bunyi yang selalu buat aisyah sejuk-sejuk badan. Bunyi motor lalu terowong. Perlahan-lahan bunyi enjin semakin hilang. Macam orang tu finally meninggalkan dunia ni. Tiba-tiba teringatkan conversation aisyah dengan Kak Yana masa balik Pahang dulu.

"Kak Yana, nanti kita kat akhirat buat apa?" aisyah tanya sambil duduk di tangga di rumah Mak Jah.

"Nanti lepas kita dihisab, kalau kita banyak pahala kita masuk syurga", Kak Yana anak Mak Jah beritahu aisyah.

"Oh..masuk syurga. Berapa lama kita kat syurga?"

"Selama-lamanya lah"

"Selama-lamanya? Lepas tu?"

"Urm. Lepas tu?"

"Takde ending ke?"

"Urm. Kalau Allah nak tamatkan, Allah tamatkan lah kot. Diakan Maha Berkuasa"

"Lepas tu kita langsung dah takde ke?"

"Umm. Ye la kot"

Waktu tu petang. Langit dah kuning-kuning. Mak Jah dah mula tutup tingkap rumah, taknak nyamuk masuk rumah.

Aisyah tarik lagi selimut. Cepat la pagi..


current..

Year 2010

"Orang tak faham kenapa aisyah susah nak tidur. Kalau bagi orang, bukak buku microb, baca 3 pages mesti nak tidur. Takyah pill tidur"

Aisyah gelak. It's true, sometimes I am like you. After few pages of Kumar and Clark, all I want to do is tidur.

But teman, I don't wish you to understand me.


It's not easy for me to fall asleep. It's been like this for as long as I could remember. Otak dan badan rasa letih selepas tidur. Macam tak tidur satu malam.

But rest assure, aisyah tak setiaaaaaaap hari seperti itu. I do have days when I don't have problem to sleep. Kadang-kadang tidur sampai orang lain pun susah nak kejutkan!

It is just that on certain days, on a difficult days, I simply couldn't fall asleep. My mind keep on thinking and wandering until it cannot slow off.

Woan Shing once taught me to mediatate. She says,

"Aisyah, you thought tidur, tidur, tidur later you will tidur. I did this to myself"

Tapi..ni requires strong determination. So aisyah tak pernah berjaya. he he he

Stacey pulak pernah kata,

"Aisyah, try crying. Later you will feel tired so you will fall asleep easily".

Well this does works occasionally, tapi takkan nak menangis setiap kali tak boleh tidur??? Nanti pergi campus, orang tanya kenapa mata lebam (putus dengan boyfriend ke cik adik?? hoho!)

Sometimes, those who knows my predicament will offer advices to overcome this. Terharu kekadang. Thank you :)

Sleeping pills only came into picture last year. I didn't sleep for the whole 2 nights until both my hands start to tremble, I felt feverish and my eyes felt hot. Pokoknya I was damn miserable. So my housemates bought me the pills. Then, the pills are always there inside my kotak obat just in case.

I am not addicted to the pills if any of you guys thought of that! The longest I've taken it so far is only 3 nights. I love my 'hati' more than this ya.

Anywaaay, this is not a post to kasihankan aisyah. (tolonglah!)

I only intend to share what I feel. It is very depressing and very miserable when one cannot sleep. Your body feel very tired, but your mind never show sign to rest. So you keep on thinking of the most ridiculous and absurd things.

Bah!

Once, I read an article about everyone will have insomnia atleast once in their life time. So you know what I mean kan?

*wink wink*


I may not wish you to understand me, but atleast can you be here beside me?