>> Time I

" You are nothing but a number of days,

whenever a day passes by,

a part of you passes by"

Hassan Al Basri

>>Dear God

Dear God,

In Your majesty, You create differences.

In my arrogance, I question Your wisdom.

In Your mistery, You create temptation.

In my inferiority, You make me more than i am.

So here i am,

Surender me in the agony of Your love.

Surender me in the irony of Your law.

lead me to the joy of love redivined.

Teach me how to love You more.

cin(T)a

You are what you eat,

You are what you read,

Wardina

"Syah, yang penting dalam hidup kita ni niat kita jer Syah. Antara kita dan Tuhan"

Allah did not promise Days without pain,

Laughter without sorrow,

Sun without rain.

But He did promise:

Strength for the day,

Comfort for tears,

and Light for our ways

This is not me! It's the hormones!

If you can't fly, run

If you can't run, walk

If you can't walk, crawl

But by all means,

keep on moving

Martin Luther King

Salam,

Two months, two months man since I wrote my last blog!

Time flies, really. To think I've survived January and February still boggles me. Thesis, remedial exams, OSCE compre -those were the things that most occupies my mind. Our minds, Intermed 2007. Now looking back, I can only smile. I've made it!

Of course, there's other things that lingers. Like how I wish I study more to get above 3.5, or atleast fully control my emotions so it doesn't affects my studies. Or how I should be more proactive and spent more time on my favorites things -drawing, piano, swimming, yoga, cycling.

Or or or...

There's always more. But what is done is done kan?

Helo for another chapter of my life! Another step to become a doctor. Gosh. I've finally said it. I want to actually be a doctor. Don't ask me a reason. No, because I couldn't give a direct reason.

Coming here in Indonesia, and become a medical student was a coincidence. Well for me maybe I like to think that way. Err fate?

I do not want to become a doctor. I rebel. I did my part and try to change it. I went and ask for dentistry. I got it. But here I am, in my koas years. Koas. Co-assistent. Wait, do I really want to become a doctor? Am I strong enough? Emotionally? Physically? Soulfully? Typical me.

Sorry guys, I'm blabbering again. You know, its 'that time' again. Hormones!

Positivity, please don't leave me.

In the midst of winter,

I find myself an invincible summer

-To me and to you-

Till then,

Cheers! :)

I like to think that he was alone for that time, but that he wasn't lonely

I like to think that he thought about his condition, but he did not despair.

The Art of Racing in The Rain

"One of the biggest lessons that I’ve learnt from my involvement with Mercy is not to judge everyone by the same standards and the same rule book. Everyone is different and has his strengths and weaknesses, and his own way of coping. "

Dr Ahmad Faizal Mohd Perdaus, head of Mercy Malaysia

So aisyah, be less judgemental yer. Zzzzz

Things don't go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up.
They happen to break you down and build you up
so you can be all that you were intended to be

Oh really?

If you lose money, you lose nothing
If you lose health, you lose something
But if you lose character-you lose everything

Johnny Ginger's Last Ride

Life is a series of pulls back and forth

You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else

Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't

You take certain things for granted

even when you know you should never take anything for granted

Tuesdays with Morries

Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle

Plato

Bukak mulut tu besar-besar lagi aisyah. Cish!

The charm of adventure sweetens the sensation,
the glow of pride warms it
but then the throb of fear disturbs it

Charlotte Bonte, Jane Eyre Chapter III

You are so weak. Give up to grace.
The Ocean takes care of each wave till it gets to shore.

Rumi

quotes

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"When the world pushes you to your knees, you are in the perfect position to pray"

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I love this quote. Hope you guys will think it too :)

"Aisyah, if you're lonely and there is no one else to tell, who do you go to?", a non muslim friend of mine asked.

I paused. Without thinking I said, "I will go to God". She looked at me, and I see, a glimpsed of enviousness.

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How ironic. Eventhough I said that, yet when I'm having difficulties, when I'm feeling down and lonely, when my head is clouded with so many things -I simply forget about this wonderful thing. Ish ish aisyah.

"Go towards him walking, and He will come to you running"

Amazing huh? :)